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I’m up early after last nights 3rd Dove Awards win and I can only think of one thing I failed to do properly; praise God that we won another Dove and that we’re still able to live our dream. You see when they interviewed me about how I felt last night all I could talk about was how I was already looking for a Grammy next year! I know seeing into your future and hoping for Gods best within in that realm is a good thing, but honestly I’m upset that I didn’t praise Him for my present state. To be honest, the future is the Lords, one in which I may not see on this side of life.

So much to say and yet I struggle to find words that fill the lines in my mind. I’m excited. This friends, is a true statement simply because we finished our record and its amazing! I’m in a relationship and that too is amazing even through the hard work. We’re on our third record and that nowadays is unheard of, so humility is my only true emotion right now.

So in the spirit of all things beneficial I feel implored to address you concerning the issue of my broken heart. I know I wrote you before and expressed the despair that I found myself in these past couple of months, but now I feel like updating you on my current status involving that monumental event. You see, I’ve never been rocked like that before. Never so torn and moved that my entire world shut down like an emotional blackout.

Well, I’ve always done my best to be honest and open with my life because I believe in the power of testimony, so here’s where I’m at my beautiful people…ya boy is heartbroken. I was in love, didn’t know it, until now and its too late. I don’t write this to be sad or upset but to maybe use my life to relate to anyone of you reading this.

In a world of marketing and commercialism we continually find ourselves in a constant state of wonderment consumed with certain ideologies that keep us locked in confusion or even depression. Example: if you’re graduating from high school, you should already know what major you want to declare and what exactly you want to do with your life. If you’re graduating college you need to have the perfect job waiting for you along with the BMW and nice house so that anyone you meet will think your life is on track and going in the right direction.