Heartbreak
Submitted by Manwell on Tue, 11/10/2009 - 7:51am.
Well, I’ve always done my best to be honest and open with my life because I believe in the power of testimony, so here’s where I’m at my beautiful people…ya boy is heartbroken. I was in love, didn’t know it, until now and its too late. I don’t write this to be sad or upset but to maybe use my life to relate to anyone of you reading this.
So many emotions going through my head. I’m sad, mad, emotional…I’m like a little girl sometimes lol! I hate that Orlando reminds me so much of her that I want to move! But guess what? I can’t. I can’t run from my reality. I can’t pray that God take away the heart ache because its in these moments that I find the beauty of who God is and the need that I have of Him.
I need Him! Not just for silly things that we ask Him for everyday but for reasons I never knew existed. So many things I did wrong this year that I wish I could take back. I wish I could push rewind and just right my wrongs, but that’s not reality. And you know what that’s ok. I’m going to learn from every mistake, and I’m going to grow. I’m going to cry, but you know what, I’m going to laugh some too. I’m going to love my life and sometimes I’m going to lose focus and let my emotions take over and maybe hate my life…but with all that in mind you know what I continue to remind myself of?
I’m still here! I’ve had heartbreaks before, and I’m still here! God has never left me in the middle of my heartbreak. Never!!! He’s always seen me through and brought me out in the most beautiful fashion and for that I praise Him! I praise Him for future smiles and future laughter. I praise Him for future opportunity and future joys. I praise Him because despite my mistakes he allows me to sit here in a blessed state and compose this letter that I pray touches somebody’s heart. I’m not perfect…I miss my ex…I miss the person I used to be and know is still inside me…but I love my hope for grace. I love that my heartbreak has taken my prayer life to another level of expectation and trust. I love that I know he has someone for me and I need not fear. Here I am Lord, broken but all yours. Do with me what you wish…
For every broken heart out there, I pray that you would trust Him more now than ever before knowing that he’ll always bring you through. That’s his nature. People will leave you, but his will for your life remains after the dust settles…believe in that, believe in Him. I love you all and I pray my vulnerability fuels someone’s strength.
Mad love
manwell
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Been there
I've been there before! Well all my ex's weren't Christians. I made plenty of mistakes with people I've gone out with. But I know God has someone out there for me. He'll give me a guy at the right time.
GOD is you life!
KEEP HIM FIRST!!
k. so here goes... im just a
k. so here goes...
im just a kid. honestly? i've got no idea what im doing with my life. but since august i've grown up so much. on august 5th, my hero was hit by a car while riding her bike home from work. she was everything to me; my hero, best friend, big sister. we are three years apart, and we got into a fight before she left. we spent the morning watching youtube videos of country singers, and i really don't like country. (sorry :) but before she left for work, she took a shower. funny since she's a lifeguard and was gonna be in the pool anyway. but we got into a fight and that was the last time i ever talked to her.
she had three emergency surgeries, and her whole skull ended up being removed. she broke both her collarbones, ribs, punctured lungs, she had a collapsed lung, broke her ankle, fingers, and had a bunch of internal damage. long story short, she died on august 10th.
she was the absolute most amazing person ever. pretty, smart, funny, gorgeous, and every one liked her. basically all you could ever want, and i was only her little sister. but she was 16 and had a lot of people that truly loved her. over 1,000 people attended her funeral, and these random strangers would come up to me and tell me stories about her. so when i really needed her most, and she was the only one that would have been able to comfort me... it's me comforting my mom and dad and little brothers.
basically, the only people you need to help you through what you're dealing with are the people you're crying over. (and God. God works too.) (God can help. even when you're not feeling it. trust me, i dont feel it. but he's there.)
so im having a little internet-rant over my life story and i just wanted to let you know that everyone here loves you!
AND HEY GUESS WHAT YOU CAN ALWAYS MARRY ME INSTEAD!! :)
The Goodness of God
Hey stranger...
First and foremost thank you for your honesty. It is often the hardest to be transperant in the mist of our trials, particularly when living under a microscope. With that said, my heart goes out to you in many ways. Like most people, I too have expererience a broken heart. And you are right, when moving forward, it is a road filled with many emotions - sometimes tears, sometimes laughter - but one always filled with the grace of our Father.
Psalm 84:11 says "For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord gives grace and glory; no good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly". Those words can be so comforting...because if He has taken something away (even if momentary, even if it hurts us) - ultimatly you know that it is for our good - whether we realize it or not. I prayerfully hope that those words truly heal and comfort you.
His ways are not our ways. The Bible time and time again shows us that. But what makes it exciting and hopefull is knowing that regardless He is Sovereighn and Wise and Loving. God uses every step. every heartache, every tear, every laugh, every step we take to draw us closer to Him, to build intimacy, so we can truly say He is the Lover of Our Soul... You said "God has never left me in the middle of my heartbreak." That should give you and all of us reason to rejoice! God is good! And just like a physician has to remove a cancer through surgery to make us better, so does God.
Regardless, may the Love of our Saviour filled you with hope and comfort through this season of your life.
Cuidate and God Bless always,
E.
Hey Manwell, thanks for
Hey Manwell, thanks for posting this! just wanted to show you this verse that goes with what you're saying.
"The LORD your God is with you. He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you. He will quiet you with His love. He will rejoyce over you with singing."
-Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)
i think this verse is a great reminder of God's insane love for us. that first part of this verse totally sums up how he will never, ever leave us. when the bible uses all caps for the Lord's name, its a sign that in the origional language, there was a name so reverent and holy that they couldn't even say it out loud. i think its so amazing to think that someone so holy that just his name can't even be said aloud will never leave us! he will take great delight in you! and honestly, that last part gives me shivers. can you imagine God singing a love song to you, for you?? just wanted to remind you, and anyone that reads this, that that no matter who is or who isn't with you, God will ALWAYS be with you! always run right back to Him.
thanks for all the great music and thoughts. praying for you.
Abby
Heartbreak
Manwell, Manwell, Manwell,
You are such a handsome, talented and blessed young man. Keep up the good work, and before you know it, the one for you will be there. I have had heart breaks in the past. One took me over a year to get over. I am happily married for over 14 years and he is a God fearing wonderful and handsome man. He is my big Teddy Bear.
I took my 9 year old daughter to the Revolve tour in Orlando and you guys blew me away. I was so impressed. It is absolutely fantastic that your generation are spreading God's love through your music. I also purchased both of your CD's.
We love you and stay blessed.
Mrs S
Yes, my strength is fueled!
I found my true love, when I was 32. And I'm not comparing myself, but here's my story. B4 I met my Dave, I struggled with the thought it might not ever happen & prayed n questioned God about it often. After many failed relationships, I honestly wondered, 'what's wrong with me?' Then, I'm not sure what happened to change me, but for some reason, I decided it was truly o.k. If I stayed on my own. Just a few months later, is when I met Dave; we dated, then married and were together for almost twelve years, until his brain cancer took him away from me 4 years ago today. We were already starting to have a closer relationship b4 his diagnosis, through our steadily increasing faith. But after it, and the 1st surgery, God so very, very blessed us with a year before it came back; In which, he had good health & we had as much of a fairytale love as I could have ever asked 4. B4 then, I never knew how amazingly brave he was, and I praise God 4 giving me the chance to know it & tell him so. Sorry this is long, but thank you, cause it was therapeutic & I hope it helps someone else, as well.
Since it's 2 long anyway, I'll go ahead & tell a funny part.
After our initial flirting, a few months went by, that we didn't speak, because of confusion on my part. I was told, 'oh honey, that one's married with a bunch of kids' and I thought, what a jerk 2 b flirting with me. I gave him more than a cold shoulder, more like an Arctic rush 4 a while, until I was told by the same person, 'whoops, wrong guy, sorry'. We later laughed about!
Thank u & God Bless!!!!!!!
thanks for the encouragement manwell!
manwell! i'm glad you posted this blog because i'm sure there are lots of people who are going through or have gone through what you've been through. God is good and will bless you with the special one He has for you. i really believe that and i'll be praying for you bro! God bless you and yours. be encouraged man of God!
Re: Heartbreak
You believe in the power of testimony.. there's a power in testimony? Interesting.. I think I should write some testimonies as well then.
Orlando reminds you so much of her you want to move? Is that why you were looking for a new house?
I've never had a hearbreak in my whole life. Don't know what it feels like either. but I do know that God's love is so.. so.. ETHERNAL, AMAZAING, LOVING! I'm going through a hard time right now. Many sad times, just like you've had with your heartbreaks. Now my relationship with God is starting to grow! It's so amazing. If I wasn't in this situation, if I've never been in this situation, I probably wouldn't know how much I need God. Ok. I know that I need God, but He's totally there for me when I have no friends around me. Like when it's the middle of the night. You feel all alone and I know it's too late to call a friend, I know can call on Him and cry the whole night. Joy comes with the morning :)
It hurts a whole lot when people leave you. Especially when you really love that person or even when you're in love with that person. God will take the pain away.
You missed the person you used to be, but there are many many many many many many many people who love you, just the way you are right now!
God has never left you. He wants you to succeed in the things you do. He wants his children to be happy. Are you happy? :) Many people are happy with you. God is happy with you as well :) :)
You know.. in the things you write and in the things you say people get wiser.
"He’s always seen me through and brought me out in the most beautiful fashion and for that I praise Him! I praise Him for future smiles and future laughter. I praise Him for future opportunity and future joys. I praise Him because despite my mistakes he allows me to sit here in a blessed state and compose this letter that I pray touches somebody’s heart."
^ This is even encouraging for people who don't even have a heartbreak. Like me. We love hearing from you
I'm praying for you. God Bless You Manwell!
Much love,
Rachel